I'm Sorry

I'm sorry

There are so many things I've done-
Trying to forget about all that has happened,
So many things I wish I could undo,
I can't tell you all the times I wanted to push reset.
And I'm sorry.

I'm sorry
for not learning how to forgive you,
But what was I supposed to do-
You went and left me here all alone-
Cold and broken my heart was in pieces,
Memories of us now lay scattered.

There's so much I haven't told you,
So many things I want to tell you,
I wish I could.
So much hurt I've come to endure,
The never ending pain,
And every night I'm forced to relive the tragedies.

I'm sorry-
I'm sorry for holding all of it in
But can you blame me,
As the days pass and as year go by-
That happy smiling child you once knew
Has passed passed away never to come back;
But what's left in his place is just the result of other’s actions.

I'm sorry-
For all the missed birthdays,
For all of the missed calls,
I'm sorry for all of the years I spent hating you.

I'm sorry-
for not being that strong person
you always wanted me to be.
The cuts may not be real,
But they are deep,
And they'll never heal.

I'm sorry for everything-
I wish we could have changed things,
I wish things between us were different,
But I guess they never will be.

I'm sorry
And I wish I could be able to forgive you.